秋天的成熟

Finally forensic hero III finishes....
It is just like completing something that i should complete....
Coz i ady begin it....
is a bit weird if din complete it....
the ending is more or less similar to the previous series...
is really quite ganjiong by the final episode...
However, the scenario is very artificial...
after watching CSI, i dun really think forensic hero is nice...
It is just like i gt the mission to complete it, dats all...
coz the previous 2 series are very nice, it accompanied me for quite some time....
finishes it and i can begin on a new life without it again...

Next, my recent life,
1 word, busy.
but actually, is it really i'm so so so busy??
i wonders....
it is true that i gt a lot of things to stay on my to-do list,
it is me, who refuses to touch it, to begin it...
everything is not dat hard actually, is the attitude...
attitude determines everything....
i hope i could change, although is hard..

exam coming soon...
1 month ++, some might think still gt long time...
but i know, with my slow progress, it is short....
there are some rumours that the mid-sem result gonna out by tomorrow...
ganjiong le....
this time, i din really perform well...
yes, i'm scare for the result, but i noe i can do nth for it..
i can only accept it, put it down and begin on the new journey toward the coming final...
it gonna commences by january next year...

Browsing through the schedule, i found not much free time,
i wanted to have some time to go back segamat, as i planned..
how i wish i wun spoil it...
i noe i can do nth at home, wun interact much with them,
i just wanna be there,
there, is my escape area.....
my lovely nice place....
"sometimes u think u have nth, but actually u might ady have everything that u need in ur life"
i believe this is what applies to me especially in my hometown,
i has nth, mom wun cook special for me, i wun demand it, it is just normal,
i dun want to disturb her with all kinds of demand...
i noe i'm not a good gal, i din help out much at home,
i will try to change, to a better daughter...

Recently, always wanted to change myself, especially mentally,
wanna be more positive, think lesser,
simply enjoy simple life..

for a relationship,
just now talked to a friend by which we are closed since NS,
he asked me get 1 faster, i has been single for too long ady...
i said, i never leave the single status,
he told me, dun set high requirement for the guys,
am i?? maybe...
is true i ever rejected a nice guy,
cant said i regret, coz i have no right to regret,
what i knew is he is still single now,
we are still friends, still talking to each other but the frequency very low, just no longer be as close as before...
I met a nice guy in June, there is sth and yet nth..
biggest prob, religion, probably (and i might ady find out the reason behind the religion)... haha...
i can say nth for this, is the right for everybody to stick to their own religion...
And i have another problem with somebody...
somebody hurted somebody closed to me before this, not long ago...
and this somebody has some intention on me, i think..
and causes problem for me during the mid-sem...
i hope, this could be settled asap...
coz i still have something left behind by the somebody with me, the result of a wrong decision during a wrong timing....
What is love? i really duno....
no experience, no theory....
some say is nice to get 1,
i noe my mom is urging me to get 1 also...
i will just let it be....
maybe sometime i have low sensitivity to it, but what to do?
i'm like that...
insensitive all the time...
living in my own little little world...
let the fate decide all these ba...

Watched the movie "you are the apple of my eye"
feel??
complicated...
maybe ady been influenced by some ppl b4 watching it, i feel that movie is still ok...
or maybe i have a higher expectation and thus, i feel a little bit disappointed for it....
anyway, maybe i will go on for 2nd time of the movie, dat time maybe i will have a different thought..

recently fall in love with an author, 张德芬....
her books are always so nice...
her articles inspires, and tells us what actually behind all the happenings surround us...
loves her so much....
i ever regretted for not reading her books properly before i met the nice guy in June,
but, i'm not regretting anymore...
coz i'm putting it down...

life still goes on and on and on and on and on.....
happy and unhappy can be managed actually,
change the perception, move away the hand,
everything is still the same..
the world outside is still wonderful....
it has no point for us to keep looking backward...
ppl says, looking backward only retards ur step forward, it never helps,
it only reveal ur scar and let the bloody fresh face the world...
why not just let the scar heals??

Now, it has been late,
i shall go to my bed ady...
just wanna say one more thing, recently i dun like to update status in fb...
duno reason, just dun want....
and duno what to update...
if possible, i wish to stop myself from fb...
is it possible??? haha... i dun really think so...
but, i will try to reduce the frequency...=D