秋天的成熟

tell myself that i wun open the link anymore.....
and cutting off everything between us....
left only fb to remain connected....

tell myself dat nvm, i am capable of doing all these annoying things....
i am able to deal and endure for 1 more week....
simply 1 mote week and 1 more month and i am free for 4 months continuosly.....
and reluctantly, i have to go on to 3rd year ady....
need tell myself to gambateh....

and the most important thing now is to tell myself dat nvm,
i can endure all the unfairness dat i get...
from new year till now....
nearly broke down because of him.....
why i must endure???
and everybody prioritize him coz he is a guy and i am simply a girl???
how come they never take care of my feeling??
why must a girl lose to a guy??
i am not dat kind of ppl to endure all these unfairness i felt deeply in my heart....
ady been hurted few years ago and the wound is still there....
it wun heals so fast....
until u all recognise my hardwork....
i dun play all the time, i do work!!!
and u all never take care of my arm is it????
although she knew dat i cant hold heavy things for long time....
and yet always ask me to bring this bring that which is not for my sake....
small things is ok but of coz not all those big big stuff la pls....
i noe sometimes u might forget abt my arm,
but pls la....
dun always say i am those "thousand gold miss" or whatever equivalent to dat ok....
everytime must say like this.....
i grow up ady....
need to take care of my feel pls....
dun ever think that i am ok for everything...
pls pls pls, take care of my feel...