秋天的成熟

well...
i think is time to conclude for my 1st year life here......

so fast....
1 year passes......
now i really realise how time "flies"......

i think....
i din wasted my 1st year uni life..........
yes, it is hectic........
yes, it is full of activities...............
yes, it is tiring................
yes, i learnt................
yes, i grow???? probably....=p
yes, i get to know many new ppl.......
yes, i turn out to be a "leader" at the end of it......
yes, i try out new stuffs..........
yes yes yes.................

is it meaningful???? yes...
is it changes me????? yes....
is it let me open up my mind vision???? yes....
is it taking most of my time???? of coz..... =p
do it made me regret????? sometimes.....
do it disappointing me????? in terms of academic???? yes!!!!!!! but i will try my best to recover my result.............
do it making my life more interested???? yes!!!! at least i din waste my time meaninglessly everyday..................

all these..............
benefits and harms............
do they equalise????
probably????
or maybe one would outweighed the other......

from debate: everything gt their own good and bad sides what...." =p

in this year, i joined quite many............
debate, fraser hill trip, mandarin class for those ppl, so called "mooncake festival', both small and big, pap, tiong hua week and the end of it, interaction day...............

somemore others i din join ady................
eg: debate....
so sad that i dun have the courage to enter there ady.......
felt so sorry to the seniors.........
and to those who still have hope on me that i will rejoin..........
i may have the time to come back after this.....
but how abt the courage????
and the debate skills?????
debate needs many many practice.....
countless practice......
for someone like me, having mandarin language background....
din speak english during daily life......
can be very nervous until duno what am i talking abt during debate......
having terrible grammar......
having very poor vocabulary.......
others probably dun even understand what am i talking abt...............
bla bla bla.....
by having all these conditions, how am i eligible to enter debate room again?????
probably i still can overcome all these......
all these can be just been taken as excuses only......
but the heart is not there ady................
time changes everything.....
very touched on the words by all the seniors during the farewell party......
i only can say that: sorry for disappointing...

next, mandarin club............
too much to say abt it.............
but i dun want mention again......
just let it passes like that..............
enough for 1 year...............

then.......... academic.............
so sad..................
the result..........
haiz...............
i will try my best to restore my result..............
haha....................
gd luck for myself and anybbody who need lucks.............
haha...............

luckily the heaviest exam over ady...........
next papers, wish me have the best of luck ya............
probably nt so important but still counted in pointer ma..........
still need take care de.......=p
jiayou jiayou.............

keep on fighting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!